Wednesday, March 11, 2009

It's just how things are...

Just a bunch of crap that isn't emotional for anyone, but me, yet, still, I post it online... Because I'm a geek

I've been seeing traces of you for years. In and out, you've jumped, sometimes, for months at a time, and I've never really paid attention, because I've had others on my mind.
But now you're always there. I can't escape. I see you every other day, and I've found that you are much more than I ever saw you as. You're part of my everyday life, and I can't get you out of my head.
I know it could work. Why couldn't it? I've talked to you every chance I can get. I've lived most my recent life just to get to know you. Believe me, I know you, and I know it could work.
Of course, what chance to I have? We're already waist-deep through high school. You've gotten your chance to climb up the ropes of the social world. I haven't had the chance. I've sunk into the pits. With only five friends, and still dropping, I've lost all the faith I have in finding someone to care for me. I'm simply just not strong enough to climb up those ropes. You're life is full of friends and lovers. All I can do is watch as they pick you up before I can even make my way towards you.
It's just as well. You've got him, and he's got you. You two are great together. I know. I know you, and I've known him. No matter how much I may want you in my life, I see you two together, happily, and that gives me enough power to keep going.